anxious little brain

thought I should write for a sec to try to calm this anxious brain. some days its the little things in life, the little wins. today I deep cleaned my kitchen, hasn’t been done in a year, I got drinking glasses finally and I AM obsessed with them, I worked out, re cut my hair, worked on new goals for the month, its a new month so always pushing myself to achieve new things. but these little wins and excitements are what keep me going. what wins have you had? what excites you? or makes you happy? huge goals are important too, but the little ones will get you there quicker and when your an anxious person like me a huge stress case I have to tell myself daily, the 2374870284 thoughts and new goals and ideas in your brain, you get to only focus on three of those, then I break those down, dissect them and how am I going to get there? and the rest can wait, otherwise our brains will combust.write them down for the second half of the year… I have been re training my brain almost a year now, I have the tools I need,but its still a battle but I understand myself and my brain so much more..learning a lot, in all honesty, it starts with you, being open to change, self growth, self love, learning you all over again. I have anxiety so bad you guys like a year ago I was about to literally drop dead, somehow I just made it to 29,I finally seeked out help, I started therapy, tried so many diff meds, learned the exercises, changed how I talk to ,myself and others, set boundaries, let me fucking tell you, I have eliminated people out of my life, I choose me now first everytime, I stick to only what I want to focus on, where I put my time and energy, who I even choose to share that with, I have limited it and this is the best decision I have ever made. before anything I do now I think and ask myself, how will this affect me, positively or negatively and its that simple. if I don’t want to do something or go somewhere or reply to you…I don’t. and vice versa. I say this all the time,” if it doesn’t grow or ground you, then bye, bless and release” I fucking stand by this. my life has changed in a year, I’m not selfish I’m fucking surviving. anxiety is a safety feature in our brains that what it is it sucks but it doesn’t. that fight or flight feeling you have all day long, that will keep you alive, its your friend don’t fight it or act like you don’t have it thats what I did for twenty eight years, im just now learning all this, its a huge part of me but I am choosing to work with it not against anymore….anyways for my anxious friends out there, I am you, were the same, hopefully this helps a bit, find the little things that YOU enjoy, that excite YOU and make YOU happy, set little goals(3 max) to get to the big ones, choose YOU, by doing so it will actually make YOU better all around, your not selfish for this in fact sort ever call yourself that again, say instead, I AM surviving, cuz if your burnt out or about to drop dead, you cant even take care of others or a job or function in life, find YOU!