what to title this one? blood or almost lover?? thoughts?

I cannot go to the ocean, I cannot drive the streets at night, I cannot wake up in the morning without you on my mind, so you’re gone and i’m haunted, and ill bet you are just fine. do I make it that easy to walk right in and out of my life? goodbye my almost lover, goodbye my hopeless dream…”one of the saddest songs ever written. and haunting and yea I guess I did make it that easy. but in all honesty I wasn’t ready, ready for you ready for love, ready to feel anything again. and I was scared.i need to learn so. much more about myself first and i’m sorry. I haven’t even wrote about this yet cuz once again i’m not ready too. but here I am in bed sick. again. and typing or I feel like im going to combust. i’ve been in bed days now, speaking of always being sick, about a month ago I got a blood panel done and today finally went over my detailed labs. so many things. once again I have a lot to work on for myself including now a new diet, new supplements, some environmental changes and probably more labs in the future.but it is a hell of a good start! I have spent the last year and a half trying to re learn and understand my brain which I do so much more now but now its time to learn my body. internally and external. the blood doesn’t lie. in a weird way I’m excited cuz for 29 years I never knew half the information I got today and now moving forward with it. ill keep you posted on my brain and my body and my shattered heart and just like I said literally learning me like all of me, anatomy and all the things. I need to understand all of this as a whole to really know myself. it all goes together and in this process learn, grace, love and the fact that its a process and my impatient ass needs to realize that. also the United States can go FUCK itself, im moving out of the country where the hatred for women isn’t real. this shit is insane to me I am livid, for now I will do what I can to fight the fight for my body for my life all the women lives ruined because some old fucks need to go fall off a fucking cliff. also my house is available to anyone trying to flee these fucked up states. seriously. and if I had land or a compound id offer you that too. -xoxo your favorite shit writer -alyx also I pick a title last every time and I’m stumped…