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not much to report, I started the therapy sessions and had my evaluation I still think I am a sociopath but its just super high anxiety and insomnia untreated my whole life catching up with me, I started meds about three weeks now they make me tired and out of it I take them at night I have no life anymore. but my mental health and awareness is important and it takes a month to notice a difference but I will continue to try them out. my backyard renovation has taking up a lot of my time an the list hasn’t even begun, cant wait to have it complete! hoping for the fall! my life list hasn’t gotten smaller but bigger but its only filled with shit that matters to me, being people have fallen off the list as well as things to do. once again, bless and release certain people and things that are draining to you. I will always put me first and choose me over and over again, I am not changing.i have accepted this about myself and I am in control of my life I have to be and I will always be, when I am not I spiral and it’s not good at all. so yup understanding my anxiety and myself more is the goal, and I get it now. so I am saying no to tons of shit I don’t need in my life. respect my boundaries I have set or get the fuck out. anyone else want to just book a cabin in the woods and not come back? yeah thats my life everyday. I think for holidays I will be off grid this year. my present to myself. anyone else okay being alone doing there own thing? good for us. i’m tired of explaing that to anyone and nor do I have to at this point. don’t add to my stress load im trying to reduce it so I don’t drop dead. thanks and fuck off.