Dear, F

Dear diary, just kidding but, Dear you, Dear F… I wanted to write this last night but I was driving and as it normally happens I had these thoughts and the urge to write this and its been overdue for a very kong time. I don’t hate you, and I think I finally forgive you, I forgive myself after all these years. i’ve spent the last few years trying to learn me, I gave you so much of me that I barely had any of me left. I have been finding her again, it will probably take me half a lifetime to fully get there if l lever do, but i’ve been trying. ive loved since you to the best that I can, but I have to fully love myself, learn me all over again before I can ever love someone like I did with you. thank you for breaking me down so badly till I had to literally pick myself up again to grow, to learn, to heal and to love again. its been such a new process for me the last few years. but I forgive you for it I forgive myself finally for giving you so much of my valuable time you took for granted, now I will spend all my time on myself, only giving it to those who even deserve it. I finally have been putting me first, its not selfish its survival is something I have recently learned, new life motto. so after all this time, dear F, I release any last hold you ever had over me, I can heal now fully and I forgive me for loosing myself to you and giving you so much that you didn’t respect or deserve.now I get to respect me, and I am deserving of better. -Sincerely, A