your allowed to be scared ,terrified even, unsure, excited, all the things at once when anything new comes into your life. It’s unease, the unknown, it’s scary when you’re used to the same things and you don’t like change. I hate change unless I’m in charge of it and I Read more…
hello favorite readers..this one is a sad one. but what’s new. I bawled my eyes out on my drive home a little bit ago. because of a song that came on and the feeling that went with it. naturally it was a TAYLOR SONG OF COURSE. so it cuts to Read more…
I owe you a thousand apologies, I owe myself even more. I wasn’t ready for you for real love and a best friend or maybe I was. I read this thing that said “you start to feel tired when your finally safe” like I have been in fight or flight Read more…
alright its stupid fucking thanksgiving. so here I am. I am thankful and grateful to myself. and to all the fuckers who ever doubted me or let me down. without you I wouldn’t be where I am now. the self growth, the journey of life and the business growth I Read more…
I talked to your ghost for months. on and off its been almost a year. December 12 will be one year since you disappeared. and now I have my answer of what happened. you just left with no explanation. no matter how I tried to find you to find out Read more…
when you finally are where you’ve envisioned yourself your whole life. when you’ve finally “made it” or whatever the fuck. the goal is achieved the feeling of I did it, and the thoughts of,. I should be happy start. lovely. thats self sabotage and even tho I do deserve all Read more…
who are you as kid? as an adult?have you changed? are you still the same? sometimes I wonder. what life would be like if I knew you now instead of then. adult versions of ourselves instead of being so young. would it matter or change anything? probably not even a Read more…
hi! how’s life everyone? I’ve been just going through the motions it feels like. summer is coming to an end, I got my backyard gate and fence built, big work goals happening and a few concerts coming up and I have a new best friend 🙂 thats about it for Read more…
I cannot go to the ocean, I cannot drive the streets at night, I cannot wake up in the morning without you on my mind, so you’re gone and i’m haunted, and ill bet you are just fine. do I make it that easy to walk right in and out Read more…
how Alyx survives…no idea. I used to say id be dead by thirty…we have six months left. i’d say tho…walks in the woods, lemon water, my moon and my crystals, shopping at trader joes, having a routine and structure, the Fabulous app is a great and motivational tool. vitamins, meds Read more…