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unknown
your allowed to be scared ,terrified even, unsure, excited, all the things at once when anything new comes into your life. It’s unease, the unknown, it’s scary when you’re used to the same things and you don’t like change. I Read more…
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pauses then says, your my bestfriend”
hello favorite readers..this one is a sad one. but what’s new. I bawled my eyes out on my drive home a little bit ago. because of a song that came on and the feeling that went with it. naturally it Read more…
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no title
I owe you a thousand apologies, I owe myself even more. I wasn’t ready for you for real love and a best friend or maybe I was. I read this thing that said “you start to feel tired when your Read more…
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stupid fucking thanksgiving…
alright its stupid fucking thanksgiving. so here I am. I am thankful and grateful to myself. and to all the fuckers who ever doubted me or let me down. without you I wouldn’t be where I am now. the self Read more…
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ghost
I talked to your ghost for months. on and off its been almost a year. December 12 will be one year since you disappeared. and now I have my answer of what happened. you just left with no explanation. no Read more…
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self sabotage,she’s a bitch.
when you finally are where you’ve envisioned yourself your whole life. when you’ve finally “made it” or whatever the fuck. the goal is achieved the feeling of I did it, and the thoughts of,. I should be happy start. lovely. Read more…
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wonder.
who are you as kid? as an adult?have you changed? are you still the same? sometimes I wonder. what life would be like if I knew you now instead of then. adult versions of ourselves instead of being so young. Read more…
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is it fall yet?!
hi! how’s life everyone? I’ve been just going through the motions it feels like. summer is coming to an end, I got my backyard gate and fence built, big work goals happening and a few concerts coming up and I Read more…
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what to title this one? blood or almost lover?? thoughts?
I cannot go to the ocean, I cannot drive the streets at night, I cannot wake up in the morning without you on my mind, so you’re gone and i’m haunted, and ill bet you are just fine. do I Read more…
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lemon water.
how Alyx survives…no idea. I used to say id be dead by thirty…we have six months left. i’d say tho…walks in the woods, lemon water, my moon and my crystals, shopping at trader joes, having a routine and structure, the Read more…